Finally!

Hie......

I know..It’s been long. Was trying to find the words.

Am not sure I did. But here I am, with so much to say, so little vocabulary to use.

For starters, I have managed to live up to my new year’s resolutions.

1. To stop social networking....I did for three months :)

2. To be more humble........... I can’t imagine being anything else now. am sure i can improve, but I am better off on this score than i was last year.

3. Meet new people.... I forgot about this one, but when I went back and checked, i discovered I done did it without noticing.. Yes, I know a couple new great people...and I aint crazy about the #NoNewFriends thing as much as other people even though I Love my old friends just fine.

4. Get out of my comfort zone.... I went over the top with this one. Wasn’t so easy at first, but then I sorta dived into it and it just started being normal being a whole new me. 

So basically, I ACED MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!!!! Done did It.

Need to come up with better ones in 2014 though. No need to undo these ones though, they are fiiiinnnnee.

Okay, I haven’t posted my gala pics..eish. 

That means I havent recorded that am in BT yet right.

Heck, there’s so much to write about.

And Oh, Jaykie came home and came up to this conclusion: Am in Love.

Freaked the hell out of me.

Like how in the world? 

Okay, I get her reasoning and all... and am not scared of falling in Love. But I am scared of falling in love with the wrong person. And that's what’s happening. Of course I laughed it off, okay; it is sorta amusing this is happening. It’s like cupid is playing a sick joke on me for being too judgmental on most girls. And I find it funny considering who we talking about here… But Damn! He makes me happy!

It’s just a matter of knowing what’s right and what’s not and ofcoz heading the right direction even if it means wrenching my whole heart right about now.

Okay, I have to say this, my spiritual life is good. I avoid saying this when it is not so good.

But at this very moment, am confident of His Grace over me and of my heritage.

This is no irrelevant at this point. But I lost a friend...Wanangwa Sanga.

I was so sad when I heard of his passing.. Even more because it was in an accident.

It’s hard to accept his loss, but am comforted. He has gone to the better place.

He fought a good fight. And surely it is precious in the Lords eyes.

Psalms 116:15>>>Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his saints.

I will definitely Miss him. And I can’t wait to meet up in heaven and dance together again: will we dance for Him? Or will we, in awe of Jesus, just be still. *I can only imagine*

I have lots to write. I stopped writing in my diary ages ago it’s sad..the way I used to do it every day though.

Lord have Mercy, Christ have Mercy...On my soul.

Am almost done with the Benny Hinn books I have been reading. I will tell you one thing,  my life will never been the same. I read *Good Morning Holy Spirit and I thought it was the best book I ever read second only from the bible...Only to read *Kathryn Kluhman-how she touched my life...and oh, something in me just shifted. I read *Getting to know the Holy Spirit. I feel like I have been spiritually starved for long...Am now reading *The Blood. And This I tell you, is the best book I ever read.. Ever.

Did I mention I have so much to write about?

Okay...

Have you ever thought like you have lost someone even when they are still alive?

When their spirit is gone and they do not want to fight and you feel hopeless because even though you have faith, you need them to also want to have hope?

I can relate to the *Hope is all we have* phrase.

Like, we are not assured of anything are we? We can lose everything in a single second.

I choose to think this way though, *we can gain everything in a single second.*

God is all I have.

B.E.A.