My relationships-My blog

I haven't always had the best relationships.
Friends, family, boyfriends
Its one of those things i always wish i could have done better.
According to myself, am too caring... and not having the best relationships hurt me the most

I would like to think i know better now than i did before.

Like i was explaining to Ray Ray yesterday, i know what i want in every relationship now
Which turns out to be a good thing and a bad thing at the same time.
My relationship with God is the most important relationship in my life
And if i ever fell from that,all my relationships would mean nothing

I am close with my mother in a weird manner. Not that we share all secrets or even any for that matter.
But would it make sense if i said i am in sync with her?
She is most probably the most important person in my life

I now have friends that i feel comfortable with to open up to
It would be a lie to say i tell someone all my darkest secrets though

I do not want to talk boys
They are not on my top list right now

Its one of those things i feel am a fake..
Like people tend to see a different side of me that does not even exist
And at times, i say, its not like i told them to see me as such
and as long as they do not see my insecurities, what do i care?
As long as God knows the real me.

Lately though, it does seem to matter.
I have got some 'strangers now turned friends' say i have an attitude
Actually someone just told me that yesterday
well, it was so cool to have an attitude at college....*i think
I dont know, it just sorta happened..
But am a very nice and an approachable person.
And if am not, that is what am going to try to be

I do believe my life and relationships would be better if the real me was unveiled though
Is that not the cry we all voice out while cowardly still hiding behind the facade?

Enough said for today..
My advice; You have not cared enough if you have stopped caring.
Its okay to voice out your insecurities, as long as they do not become all you talk about.
(Though i do not suppose am voicing out mine anytime soon.)

I believe God will do away with my insecurities
In fact, am counting on it...!