GALLERY of LIFE

Wellll...the past two months have been...bliss actually. am telling you people, Trust and Obey in the Lord. There is this peace that only He can give. So am not gonna write a lot, though i have a lot to share with you, on my walk with Christ right now. But today i have lots of pictures to upload..Its been long since i last did that.

I think am starting to embrace looking girly after all... I Sorta kinda am being too girly lately

gosh, that city and its dust! Anyways, am talking to Christine(Dr.) in the green dress...and this in front is Joanne, christines' elder sister though she looks younger

oh, brothers in church...thats Jonathan(jaethan) and then thats Jerome...J & J huh?

Marj did my Makeuppppp!!!

Marj does the best make up i know..she always makes it look elegant...and this here is her(This was zomba trip now)

I missed Eve i had to take tonnes of pictures of her am telling you

And she still remains my pwetty Fashionista!

Eves driving is sorta okay....better than i thought neh...Though I might think that simply cause i was busy taking pictures in the car with Sheila posing in the background

Eves divalish things keep rubbing off on me

Had NOOOO idea she was gonna wear stripes and jeans btw 

Iwas trying to pose....shame

My two Poly besties whom I Loved ever dearly....These two made college what it was for me 

Trust me,, they knew i was taking pictures

Smile for Beeeeeeeee

I love this....

Vickkyyyyyyy got Engaged!!

Beautiful Wana......gentle and strong

cut my hair a little

But we need to allow it grow now

Love it still though :)

Grace classmate got married.....and I took this picture hey

Still being crazy with Le Mesho..taking unnecessary selfies

Hie There

feeeeellll great....do good! love more......

my biggest challenge in life is boredom.

when am bored, i set up challenges for my self that when i think about them, days,weeks,months, years later, i cant help but marvel at the absurdity of it all.

but eh....i now have a sacred obsession that makes it, totally impossible for me to be bored.

i have no time to fulfill bets to myself or anyone or to fulfill any challenges,let alone come up with them.

do not have capitals on my keyboard so am kinda lazy to be switching on and off the virtual keyboard.

wait....hie...

its been sooo long... i haven't written in a long while..

trust lots has happened between then and now. 

one thing is certain, i have gained a lot.... a lot of everything, except physical weight.

i thought i was stronger up-til i realized being strong was not all that's cracked up to be. 

now i am strong. in my weakness i found strength. 

this is going to be one of those "not exactly going to make sense posts" because am writing from the top of my head and publishing without going through it. but sometimes, i look through these notes& i love it.

so..whats new? learning.... so much learning. my pastor, pastor Aubrey Mwatsinga(yes, i took time to change the capitals for my life-coach, mentor and father),, he always says " learning has not occured unless there is change. learning should always manifest in change" deep.

this journey has just began...i have already had people telling me how i have changed so....give me time......

gotta go! love much! 

>with a biiggg grin on my face! *watch me!!

not the same girl anymore....but same name...

BE@TR!CE <3 :*

Tionge Veronica Mfune!

DAY OF REMISSION THE MOVIE-CRITIC

Every where on my facebook is this movie, *The day of remission.
Probably cause most of my friends are poly CCAPSO & SCOM drama members (I was CCAPSO drama).

The director Gilbert Moyo, a wonderful person, is a friend of mine..we were in the same class at college, and i have always admired his passion for art.Probably the reason why i watched the movie to begin with.

Its about 40minutes overall, if you pause atleast once like me when watching.

There are a couple of things that caught my eye when watching the movie and i feel i should start with those.

Firstly, the whole movie has great visuals! No lie, whatever camera was used, visual quality was not compromised. Caught me offguard also, because,most of the  Malawian movies i have watched are just too poor on the quality. Too bright or too dark for my amateur eyes most times. But the whole movie here on was just on point.

The storyline is great...The point well given *Jesus will wash your scarlet red sins away and make them white as snow*

Also, there are just some great punch lines that made me laugh and some that were plain great work of art.I will give an example,
Pastor(Giving a sinner the Jesus save me prayer): I want my name to be written in the book of life
Sinner: There is a book???
And so many others as the movie goes along.

All that aside, great musicals! No, seriously....and my favourite ofcourse is "come as you are" by Rhema. I had to see who sang that song, and it gave me pleasure that it was Joshua (Rhema). I like his music. That aside, the instrumentals in the whole movie are great.Mostly because they play the background so well and do not interrupt the movie so much as compliment to it.

I cant go without saying this, there is the Chipembere highway scene of two street fisters. WOW!
 I repeat, WOW!!

I have no words to truly describe just how proud i got after getting to that scene.It is a silent scene with just instrumentals (the ones am turnt on about).But the whole seen is artistic as it is proffessional. Proffessional being the word i would use mostly.Everything about that scene is amazingly excellently done. Probably the best scene in the whole movie.

On the other hand, i want more of these movies produced, and if they are to be produced even more, they have to improve on a couple of things.

For instance, i would really like the casting to be done professionally.  I like the work done on the pastor (Played by David Kamwendo), he looked very grown and mature for his part which is in contrast to the role of the Minister and his wife. The former just looked young. If there are no real old people to play the part, I believe what was done to Kamwendo can also be applied to the actors. Because, the moment i see a role of minister being played by a youngstar, i get the mindset that just makes me not take the whole movie seriously.

I am no movie expert, but i, just like any other person viewing the movie will judge the movie, and i was somehow dissapointed with the acting of a couple of people.  There is some amateur air in the acting even though i know CCAPSO and SCOM drama have always had superb actors and demanded splendid acting. Kamwendo and Jamilla Kadammanja (The reporter), were probably the best in that movie and i could not find anything wrong with their acting. The interview between the two at the end, makes me want the movie to go on as they convincingly play their part. I am not sure what course Kadammanja is taking, but if she is doing journalism and is thinking of joining the mainstream, i think chances that she will make it are more quite high. Her demeanor was convincing enough. The bodyguard of the minister though silent in almost the whole movie does make me notice him. He acts well though he could have concentrated on his ear thing a little less times than he did.

On the other hand, actors like the minister, his wife and the killer (the main actress of the movie), could have been greatly worked on. I have issues believing their roles. The killer gets in and out of character at a speed i cant keep up. One point she has it, the next minute she doesnt. At the beginning of the movie, for example, she starts off well, and loses it when she says "you always remember your first kill." She was given a great punchline right there that she could have nailed. But then i noticed that it had something to do with her voice projection. i do not expect a killer to have a voice like the one she projected. am not saying it should scream *am bad!*There was need of more conviction from her. Even a sultry daring voice could have accomplished the task.

The shooting scene was well planned but not exactly that well executed. It ended up taking longer than it should have in my opinion. The sad thing is, it is the crucial scene and all excellence should have been shown here. For some reason also, it was just too long like from a staged screenplay.

Which brings me to my next point, the movie was written and perfomed like a stage play.There are a lot of things that could work as a stage play in it, but just not as a movie. For example, the scene at the end was too long for a video in my opinion.

I felt the time that was given to that last scene could have been used to exploit the rape and saucide  scenes. They were too rushed up only to make a complete show of slowness at the last scene.

Other tiny details also need to be paid attention to though, just to increase excellence and show proffessionalism. For instance,in the saucide scene, how do you have a ready person, On top of a tall building mind you, to stop someone from committing saucide. Also, angles from which this scene was shot were advantageous for the shooter, but they werent exploited. In the last scene, i do recall the pastor being shot again, only this time, it doesnt show where which made me conclude on some part of his leg. Which in turn suprises me, because i see him kneeling just fine afterwards.

The person working with the effects did a great job, especially on the phone dialogue, i like the simplicity of it all, but really, the slow motion of the killers getting out of the car was not necessary. Made it look like an amateurNigerian movie. And this is definitely not the look to vie for, originality is key.

I was suprised the street kids were able to speak English. In the roles them two were given to play, i sincerely believe a chichewa screenplay was called for, and subtitles could have been used. it could even have hold more substance in my opinion. But maybe this is because the setting of the whole play was not clearly preset or given.

In conclusion, this is a great start, and there is definitely something worth viewing in the movie. In the same breath though, some major improvements need to be done in the next project.

I congratulate all the people in the production of the movie overall, Job well done! and it brings me joy that there shows to be progress into the right direction on this one.

I hope you view this criticism positively and feel the love i say it with.

I present to you, DAY OF REMISSION(Download Link)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iC0FNuehcno&hd=1

Signed

Poly CCAPSO Drama Member(Never Ex)
Beatrice.

Moving On...

I don't want to go on saying about how I have so much changed in the past year..... I will leave that for people to judge. My pastor always reminds me, talk is cheap.

So even though I would feel it in me that I have changed,if it is Not visible,then no work done.

Actually though,I have lost Soooo much weight its visible though.....jokes but true. I can fit into all my jeans now,nothing to worry about.

To begin with,,Airtel just started becoming the worst service operator ever,and I want to switch to TNM, but dear boyfriend promises to go on a call strike if I do so...And I still think he is perfect hey,Smh.

I have gone past the phase of overthinking anything. 
It's simple like this, God says yes,it gets done. He says No and I forget it.

I am fulfilled in doing and working towards my purpose.

I have been quiet I know.I just didn't know what to write about. 
I was going to write a post on how RFP blessed my life,which it does all the time,but I get speechless on what to write about. Is it the constant Holy presence,the overflowing love in the family? The fact that,I have been inspired and pushed to read my bible ten times more than I ever did? It's just so much to write about.....

I was going to write about Kay,the boyfriend.
How he is perfect and the perfect gentleman? Most of that would have been,just how he puts up with my crazyness,according to my sis that is. 

Really,I have lots to write about,I just don't have the pull to do it anymore.

But I hope I get back to doing it here on. I have to. When I get the time ;) 

On a more serious note,if you read my blog,and you are Not Born Again,,I urge you to reconsider getting born again. It is the ultimate game changer in your life.
Dear friend,you do Not want to die without having Jesus in you.
John 3vs 3 does cement this.

 KJV: Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.

NET Jesus replied, “I tell you the solemn truth, unless a person is born from above, he cannot see the kingdom of God.

I cannot stress enough the love and urgency with which I say this unto you. I can help if you want to receive Jesus. And am sure,so can your pastor if you do Not want me to be the one for it.and if you do Not have a pastor,I would be glad to recommend one for you. Email: beamfune@gmail.com.

I pray you make the right decision and be set free from the slavery of sin. Understanding John 8 from verse 30onwards.

I love you all...and thank you for being with me in my growing up journey.

Indistinguishable Rumblings

I have written about 4 posts in between the last one and this one, just ended up deleting them, they were too emotional. I will try to summarize them all in this one though,, yes, i will be that nice..lol.

I have always had a hard time with letting go of friends. And by friends, i mean it literally, with no other meaning, yes, ordinary friends.

You ever been so close with some people so much you cannot imagine going a day without talking to them, then just sm day you wake up, and they are total strangers?

I have most of those.

Up until recently, i would take the blame and always say, its my fault. Maybe i have changed so much, or maybe i treated them badly. so always, i would reach out to them. i have never worked my pride vice on the people i Love, i know the cost of that.

Anyways, i know better now. its not exactly being proud.
people will always get estranged for one reason or another.
Point is, I need to stop hanging on.
Aint about giving up on my friends, just setting them free from my high horse of expectations.
i admit it, i do set up a high standards for my friends, even if they do not know it themselves.

so pretty much this year,its going to be God, my family and I....and God save us all, that one guy.

Again, not that i have given up on friendship.
I just feel i give out so much of myself and have been faithful and loyal to people who havent.

Also, i realised i have a bunch of friends whose principles and mine are in parallel...
So one of us has to bend.Usually aint me, but there willalways have to be times i compromise to appease such friendships.
such immaturity, obvious conformity, My Father frowns upon.

In my justification, even though i do not need one at this point, i feel lonely even having so many friends. I mean, might as well stay without them right? cold, and sad. but true.

On the other hand, this goes out to some friends who have the below characters, am hanging on to the rest,lol
1. friends who always bring so much negativity
2. friends who are too proud and full of themselves even...
3. friends who want everything that's mine (I have a couple of these)
4. friends who dont respect My God (God is taking this thing seriously)

well, you get the hang of it...

such friends i have to let go and not hang to.
its not because am perfect or am better. am sure they are better matches with other people and may even be better than me. Only that,we are not good together.


This should not be read bitter though.

we all know am too nice to actually dump anyone,,especially a friend.

okay,,enough said..

 In other not so depressing news.....
A happy Birthday to my january babies

Shazz > organised a surprise party for her, it was worth it..every penny of it for that look in her eyes..oh, and the scream.... Now she is def an exception to this post
Gloria> still mad at me for forgetting her birthday, idk how i did it... but a happy birthday to her. Hugs and kisses

lately am happy and vibrant....and then i get these smug looks sometimes...the essence of being content is catching up to me.

(One of my favorite hymns, with its original lyrics)
Only in this case, it really is well with my soul
.....
It Is Well With My Soul
(Horatio Spafford)

When peace like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to know,^a
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Refrain:
It is well, (it is well),
With my soul, (with my soul)
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life,
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.
But Lord, 'tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul.
And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
A song in the night, oh my soul! <sup>b

a</sup> "know" (at the end of the third line) was changed to "say".
^b "A song in the night, oh my soul" (last line)
was changed to "Even so, it is well with my soul
  
Stay super blessed!
A lot to learn!
Porschest!

A WAY TO START THE YEAR

Was going to tweet all this below...
Now I just remembered to change my Twitter bio...

I have had the two most extreme days on the 31st and the first (yesterday)

Was at work on the 31st...knocked off and went to meet up wf Maggie. Pizza with her and her friend and some wonderful guy.

Then...

Then at some party where we started the year 2014.then ended up at some club.

Totally bad decisions on my side.

Didn't even sleep and I was on my way to the mountain..I wasn't even late.stayed there till after 3, when we came back, and the rain made it impossible to move.left that side after five.

Still soaked though.

It was whilst this soaked that I met 'the love of my life'. Yap...haven't lived even half my life,,but I have already destined him for life. The way I roll my eyes when I hear such illogical reasoning. But you get the point.

Okay well,,back to the story,it was strange.and I cudnt help but laugh at the irony of it all.It was later on, that I thought,we were standing in the rain,and pretty much being amazed.* I completely forgot about the whole kiss in the rain thing,damn* Hahaha

I got home by six thirty,ate,argued with my mum about getting a bath because I was soaked and would get sick.I took a bath because I wanted to sleep like a baby.

Read my bible and notes. THEN I SLEPT!

Before eight even.I can See I got calls on my phone like thrice during the night,I have no idea what I said in them.should really learn to switch my phone off during the night.

I set my alarm for 7, cause yes,I wanted to be late for work and sleep to the fullest. Holy Spirit demands excellence and I was up by 5:30 with no alarm.

It just hit me though,Eve called me at 12. Seriously now,that's a miracle in itself.(please don't let her See this post). I miss her so much though

Aggie has a boyfriend!!! Nanananana... (Snitching 101).am yet to meet him nde I can't gossip much.

In unrelated thoughts,,

Sometimes I think we let people hurt us deliberately.you know deep down its gonna hurt but you do it anyway?
Gal,if he is the one,It wouldn't hurt soo bad!! *Moving On

The hypocrisy of moving from a club and going to pray.wow. that is one of my lowest moments to date. Never to happen again no matter what.
No more clubbing whenever. eish,am yet to come up with a much lame idea.

Prayers at the mountain were wonderful.it was the five of us,and Not obligatory. Just five random people you would never put together, but we had a wonderful time..I learnt a lot.but best of all,,it was a great start to a year.

In this all though,I ruined my favourite pair of shoes from the rains, my favourite handbag,though now I just love it more coz it stl looks great,lol..sooo much to write about.

I need to be careful who I interact with.

So many projects to start now. Which is all for the best,I been thinking a loooott. Need to be occupied with something productive than thoughts about guys. One guy.

Lol...I think the more u can't have something,the more you want it.but now I feel better as that's settled. Eish, it was a messy puzzle.
*hoping he doesn't read this.he will.Smh.

Happy New Year Jaykie!! I miss your loyal Craziness!

This year is going to be wonderful.

There is a lot of traffic on the blog than before...idk how I feel about that.sad and scared top the list though. But that just means i no longer post on Facebook and Twitter blogposts links. sad day.

Now imagine if I tweeted all this ;)

Still young and learning....

Mountain Pics

XOXO
Tionge

BYE 2013: HELLO 2014!!!

Last post is kind of too sad...too sad I shouldn't have posted it.

Oh well,,let me start off where I ended with the *finally* post.

That post was blown out of proportion. Especially the am in love part.
So let's get a couple of things sweet super clear..

1.just cause Jaykie thinks am in love does not mean I think so too...or that I really am.

Great.Now its gonna sound like am denial.

2.I did mention the person is question was totally wrong to fall for.yes?
Haven't I always been known to do the right thing? Idk why anyone would think I would do otherwise

Anyways,,any of that ain't important anymore.
Love things confuse me too much for me to try to explain.

The year 2013 is to me equivalent to the year 2009. I will have you remember that 2009 was my best year at college. okay,enough said.

2014
*I hope I live up to the dream version of myself.
*I hope I maintain inner peace when I find all that am looking for.
*I hope God never gives up on me. :(

It's going to be my year of Gracious Opportunities.

Resolutions
I See people going all,*I don't make new years resolutions....some add anymore at the end...in my mind am like,yah,that was me at some point in life; aimless.
But that's Not my problem.

I am the type to make resolutions.
I wanna know what I want to achieve other than just stumble into it.

Of course though, I don't post all my resolutions here or anywhere else come to think of it. They are for me and God alone.

But the ones we all might wanna cross check
1. Know God more. I wanna get rid of my spiritual immaturity.

2.Fellowship with the Holy Ghost to a greater height

3. Love God and myself much more.

Does that sound like all my resolutions are God centred? Okay,great.They are. I have learnt,that when my relationship with God is good,things just automatically go great.that simple logic that makes me just wanna seek him more and know He will work on me.

Simply also cause He is the centre of my existence.

'Seek Ye first the kingdom of God and the rest will follow'

2014 seems like the year I start building up on the foundation laid in 2013.

So yes,,I want to b a better person,be much nicer,,be an exemplary Christian,,I want to learn and Not make the same mistakes made in the past years.I want much.and all that,i will achieve through Him who strengthens Me.

My financial resolutions and you will scream No.so al keep to myself.ey r that grand.

Highlights of ths year in pics...I admit I did a hazy job of t last year but its cause I was in a rush,didn't have that many pics.allow.

This year though,we have so many pics a had trouble choosing.I chose some and still they were many.

Nb:The pics look good on a pc.

Three quarters of the pics below I took myself,or I was there when t was taken.the rest I asked for,& bless these peoples hearts,ey never asked what they were for.Smh.

Okay,,major moments....

I turned 21....its liberating...!!!! And then mind blowing,,am getting old..and so far am yet to do something people remember me for.the footprint in the sands of time is Yet to be made.

Graduations!! Yes!! With an S!!I graduated..my big family came...See pics.. Aggie my love graduated!!! We didnt graduate together like we always planned to,but See pics also. Kumbu graduated!!!! We didn't graduate together also... But Divine,my favorite in_law ryt now was there...check pics...

3.Christmas event at RFP...I love my RFP family so much.my pastor is simply God sent and I have grown so much from every member. Was in the Christmas service organisation committee..am yet to serve in a better place.it was sooo much fun! I loved it and the service itself.

4. Went to the lake twice ths yr.. shd go more this year...and both times,I had super fun!!
5.staying wf mum and dad....the best parents in the world. I love them dearly.
Seriously,,There is too much to post....al tel in 2014... This post is too long.

Okay,the Pics below are of the beautiful people in my life.in different ways they make up the person I am. I love em all.
Ps. Emmanuel and a couple of people are suspiciously missing on the collages. I love em still,I just don't have that many pics of them.

& some people,well...their pics being on here would just be too controversial we don't need that in 2014. I would put em here otherwise.

Thank you all for the pieces of me you take care of, and May 2014 be the best year you have ever had in Christ Jesus Name.

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!!!!!